Board Thread:Fun and Games Forum/@comment-26355186-20150819063938/@comment-24306135-20150825212233

(He can't do that. I hate him just as much as you. To be honest, I made these posts we've been screaming about because I felt that to do anything else, to try being sane, would be more fraudulent than trying something new. I felt like destroying Sauron would be impossible. It's kind of like Misery, the Stephen King book. You take what you hate about yourself and you put it into writing, but when you try something new, you know that part of you,, the part you though was written out and dead, has to be destroyed for good. In a way, Sauron is a literary voodoo doll: everything bad about my life, all my issues outside this RP, go into him. So now, he needs to die; messiily, dramatically, spectacularily. And once he's dead, that new era Zero waxed valiant about can get started.

I want to thank you guys for this.

It's a sort of therapy, I suppose. I take what I know people would only coddle me about, the stuff that people say "isn't true", the anger and the hate and the bigotry and the lies and the rude mean thoughts and the near-insanity of my existence, and I mold it into something people can recognize as evil, something they can lash out against and feel it give beneath them as it withers and it dies. Your flame comments, in every instance, have been the catylst in destroying every bad part of myself, someone none of you will ever meet.

And that's why I never left. Because I needed to destroy what I had created, what I had unleashed on all of you, without cause and without meaning. And you gave me the tools. I found the pieces of the bad things, I put them together, and I gave them to you for you to destroy, because I couldn't do it myself.)

(Sauron needs to die, and I can't do it alone.)

(Are you willing to help me?)